Anonymous asked: You're way out of Leo's league

Psht, fuck off. If anyone is out of anyone’s league it’s him who’s out of mine, he is so genuine, nice, funny and he makes me smile until my cheeks hurt. What more could a girl want?

I was born on august the 23^rd, I hear that makes me a leo and I have no idea what that actually means.

I am 5.2ft and I weigh 55 kg although I wish I weighed 45. I don’t know how to sing and I am a sucker for a boy with a nice smile. I am still learning how to project myself and my feelings, I am often loud in places where I know  I should be quite and I’m often quiet in places I should be loud. I like creaming soda.. a lot. I’ve been told that I can give really bad hugs, people say that it feels like I am trying to escape and most of the time it’s because I am.

Secretly I get really nervous every time someone gets close enough to hear me breathe.  I have an odd fascination with things like sand castles and ice sculptures.I assume it’s because I usually find myself dedicating time to things that will only last a few moments. I guess that’s why I fall in love with things that will never love me back and I know that sounds crazy but it’s easier than it seems and to be honest I think it’s safer that way you see relationships often remind that I’m not afraid of heights or falling but I am scared to death of everything that’s going to happen the very moment that my body hits the ground.

I’m clumsy, yesterday I tripped over my self-esteem, landed on my pride and it shattered like a Iphone with a broken face. Now I can’t even tell who’s trying to give me a compliment. I’ve never been in the military but I have this purple heart I got it from beating myself up over things I can’t fix. Some days I treat my body like a costume and I feel like a mascot for a school no body wants to go to.

I know this sounds weird but I wonder what my bed sheets say about me when I’m not around I wonder what the curtains would do if they found out about all the things I’ve done behind their back. I have a hamper that’s over flowing with really really loud mistakes and a grave yard in my closet. I’m afraid if I let you see my skeletons you’d grind my bones into powder and get high off my fault lines.

I enjoy frozen yogurt, people watching and laughing for absolute no reason. I don’t allow myself to cry as often as I need to. I have solar power confidence and a battery operated smile.
My hobbies include:
Editing my life story
Hiding behind metaphors 
and trying to convince my shadow that I’m someone worth following

I try so hard to be there for people, complete random strangers I’ve never met before, just because I know all too well what its like to be depressed, alone, frustrated, etc. So I try to make it so there’s at least a voice, something, some indication that they’re not alone, and someone gives a crap about them. But really, I’m probably more alone than they are. Right now I need someone to talk to, and no one’s around. There isn’t a soul around that I would feel comfortable bothering at this hour with my problems. Everyone’s so sick of hearing about them. I don’t blame em, they’re the same problems I always have. They never go away, but the people that I could talk to about them, they do, they go away. Who wants someone as desperately and with so little to offer like me? No one, that’s who. And this is all I’ve got, a stupid little blog post to vent my feelings, one that probably won’t be read, and even if it was, be ignored. I just don’t want to be alone anymore. I can handle the rest of the way my life is, I can deal with that. But I can’t take this feeling. Its just too much all together. I’ve never been one to walk away, but I’ve had enough

Anonymous asked: You seem to be very down, why? You have everything going for you. You are gorgeous. You have a lot of friends and your famly cares about you.

Sometimes I just let my emotions get the best of me but I’m fine, seriously. aha

Anonymous asked: Is matt teoh the most amazing guy ever like oh em gee hes soo amazing yah yeh?

He’s not bad!